一位年轻医生的笔记第一季

       一共四集，把不同时代的同一个人放到一起，也是一种比较不落俗套的表现形式。
    作品的前半部分还是很吸引人的，尤其是配上稍显滑稽怪诞的配乐，更加生动的表现了医生刚毕业时的生涩和趾高气昂。通过几个大手术也体现了这医生确实具有医术。
    还有不得不说的就是本剧演员的演技，丹尼尔的演技还是让我眼前一亮的，这么多年的“哈利波特”并没有把他框在一个正义少年的形象中脱不出来。另外一个男演员不是很熟悉，不过演技是没得挑的了，“长辈”和吗啡上瘾者都演得很入戏。
    最后来说一下缺陷。其实第一遍看结尾没怎么看懂，就这么结束了？后来回看了一下第一集，才有一点思绪。整个片子就是通过一本笔记回顾了这位俄罗斯医生人生最幸福的一段时光。可是电影想表达什么呢？难道就是想告诫人们不要碰吗啡，这是青少年毒品教育片吗==（ok就写这些吧）

（本文原作者为牛津 John Radcliffe Hospital 的妇产科医生 Chris Bird）

In 1916 Mikhail Bulgakov, 24 years old and fresh from medical school in Kiev, was posted to a snowbound rural clinic in northwestern Russia, “thirty-two miles from the nearest electric light,” to fill a gap left by doctors serving on the eastern front. In his semi-fictionalised account, A Country Doctor's Notebook, the young medic spends the journey to the remote hospital on rutted tracks, worrying about how he will cope with tracheotomies and obstructed labour (he has seen only two normal deliveries at medical school), fretting over his youthful appearance, and urging himself to walk, not run.

1916 年，24 岁的基辅医学院应届毕业生 Mikhail Bulgakov 被派遣到西北部一个常年被雪封住，而 22 里外才有电灯的乡村诊所，来填补都去了东部前线的医生们的空缺。他的半虚构自传《A Country Doctor's Notebook》（ http://book.douban.com/subject/4253913/ ）即描述了一个刚刚经过长途跋涉来到偏远医院的年轻医师。主人公纠结于如何实施气管切开术和难产手术（而此前他也仅仅目睹过两次顺产），亦纠结于自己青涩的外表和走路姿势。

He doesn't have to wait long before a cart rumbles into the hospital yard carrying a young woman with a leg smashed in a flax brake, her pulse barely palpable. “‘Die. Die quickly,' I said to myself. ‘Die. Otherwise what am I to do with you?'” However, he horrifies himself by ordering the “feldsher,” the Russian equivalent of a physician's assistant, to prepare the theatre for an amputation. His own adrenaline as potent as the camphor injections given to revive the patient, he saves her by removing the leg.

Later he is presented with a fetus with a transverse lie and has to examine the woman in front of the hospital's veteran midwife: “The fact was that once the experienced Anna Nikolaevna had told me what was wrong, this examination was quite pointless.” The midwife breaks protocol, advising a “podalic version.” The doctor gravely concurs, announces that he's off for a cigarette, and runs to look up “podalic version” in his textbook of operative obstetrics. As they scrub in, Anna Nikolaevna recounts how his predecessor performed the procedure. “I listened avidly to her, trying not to miss a single word. Those ten minutes told me more than everything I had read on obstetrics for my qualifying exams, in which I had actually passed the obstetrics paper ‘with distinction.'”

Such an internship, including an attack by wolves while on his way to a home visit in the middle of a blizzard, is no longer the norm for house officers (although it remains so for many doctors in the developing world). But Bulgakov's struggle with the dark Russian winter swirling outside his window symbolises the lack of experience, loneliness, and the worry of breaking the Hippocratic oath that gnaws at the sleep of junior doctors everywhere.
（以上情节皆与短剧如出一辙）
Shattered by morphine addiction, typhus, and his forced conscription during the brutal Russian civil war, Bulgakov abandoned medicine to write, including the novel The Master and Margarita. The attentions of the Soviet censors, Stalin's secret police, and renal disease pushed Bulgakov into an early grave (his brother Nikolai escaped Russia to become a respected cardiologist in Paris). He had his doubts about the medical profession—“I won't call doctors murderers, that would be too harsh, but I will call them casual untalented hacks”—but medicine was for him a light in the dark days of Soviet repression. “Each person ought to be a doctor,” Bulgakov wrote, “in the sense of disarming all the invisible enemies threatening life.”
在吗啡上瘾、梅毒、和在这场野蛮的内战的强制征兵的高压下，Bulgakov决定弃医从文，并写下了小说《大师与玛格丽特》（ http://book.douban.com/subject/1077492/ ）。苏维埃的审核制度、斯大林的秘密警察与肾病迫使 Gulgakov 英年早逝。而值得一提的是，他的哥哥 Nikolai 逃离到了巴黎成为了一名心脏病医生。Gulgakov 对从医有着这样的质疑：「我不会称医生是杀人犯，但是我认为他们是漫不经心的二流人士」。可医学对他来说，仍是苏维埃强权压迫下黑暗日子里的一丝光明：「每个人都应该成为一个医生，去与那些在威胁生命的看不见的敌人们斗争。」

很喜欢这种表现手法，倒叙中插入与自己的对话。面对茫茫的看不到尽头的希望是苍白的，恐怖的。在年轻再有志向的人也会迷失，不管你是十五门优秀，那种迷失是恐惧，到最后败给恐惧。突然觉得跟自己的处境一样，日复一日，来不及思考，或者说思考了还是重复昨天的今天，恐惧到底会来，带着什么来我不知道，好困惑。

风雪交加的深夜里，当年轻医生第一次哆嗦着踏进这间开在荒郊野外的诊所时，屋内昏黄却不乏暖意的灯光照亮了他的侧脸，暂时将屋外一切寒冷和阴郁扫去。

医院前任大夫的画像挂在墙上，如老大哥一般犀利地斜视着年轻医生，浓密的白胡子之上，那眼神和外面的寒风一样刺骨。Leopold leopoldvich先生，女助手用充满爱慕和崇拜的口吻一次次提起这个冗长的名字，在简陋陈旧的手术室里，摄影师在她与年轻医生的对话中，给了她微微的仰拍，加之丹尼自身的身高劣势，他的对答、他的种种乌龙辩解显得如此天真幼稚不科学。在年轻医生套上Leopold常穿的白大褂时，整个画面从暖色又回到了清冷的不饱和的蓝白色调，而这种色调第一次出现是在他进屋前，处于深夜、风雪与寒冷之中。

就这样，年轻医生开始了他的第一份社会工作，头顶“十五次优秀”的光环渐渐黯淡，不知不觉中他被迫换上了刻着另一个人名的紧箍帽。年轻医生总是没有机会选择——他被上级发配到这个“鸟不拉屎的地方”，他被忠心耿耿的助手们期望成为下一个Leopold，他被将死的病患吓得手足无措，独自承担下这些后，他又被胃痛折磨。对此，未来的自己只是回过头轻描淡写来一句”你会习惯的”或是“我是医生，我自有分寸”，最终他被吗啡毁灭。

用过去和现在时间双线叙事的影视作品不少，但像《年轻医生》这样默认两个时空的人可以自由对话，甚至发生肢体冲突的还是不多见。每次交互中，同一个人，一个壮志凌云的菜鸟医生一个虚度光阴的瘾君子，对比之下竟是天壤之别，还记得夏洞奇老师很不解“医学生的字我都看得懂，怎么医生的字就一个都不认得”，字如其人，这是多么有深意的一个疑问啊。

连牙床一起拔下的牙齿、飞溅一脸的脓液、血肉横飞的截肢手术，时不时刺激着暗冷色调的镜头，加之无知村民一张张漠然而固执的面孔，自他踏进医院的那个夜晚便注定要包裹覆盖着他，那时的一副雪景反复用于各场景的连接，皑皑白雪切断了年轻医生与世界的所有联系。有相同遭遇的Leopold 在给年轻医生的信中感叹"the world is sick,what good can a doctor do",他选择弃医从党，展开轰轰烈烈的新生活，而刚安定下来的年轻医生正打算实践为全世界救死扶伤的崇高理想，自然对离开和放弃毫无概念，或说他实在太年轻又孤身一人，无所依靠，心中偶尔燃起的冲动他人三言两语就能浇灭，他一路拖着行李箱走到门口，可还是垂头转身，他选择把革命、事业、爱情统统埋在这积雪下。也就是那一天，年轻医生开始胃痛，自此天时地利人和，绝望出场。

理想与现实的抗衡，真的是以前者完败收场吗？并非全是。年轻医生早年医治的许多患者齐聚医院来感谢他时，他们的眼神依旧无知却带着温暖的善意，曾经的固执己见变成了充分信任，这才是医患关系的核心价值所在不是吗？“能成为小Leopold"一语亦是女助手能给他的最高褒奖…可惜，年轻医生已经听不进去了，因为这一切来得太晚了，在他最脆弱最需要指导的时候没有一个人怀着真心来问候帮助他，直到他一步步为实现理想付出了身心双重代价，现实脱开了他的掌控，任何回馈都已经难以安慰和抵偿他虚弱的身体和空荡荡的灵魂。当他将两管吗啡注入垂死的女孩的静脉时，内心的绝望生了根，与其让她在痛苦与吗啡中斗争，不如让她死去。后来，那些在开片出现过的橙黄色调又出现了，却再解不出明媚欢愉之感，徒留夕阳迟暮的象征了，画面舒缓平静，现在式的“年轻医生”蜷缩在角落，享受吗啡幻化出的太阳的温暖。

剧本由小说改编而来，我不想在这个带点魔幻味道的故事上强加一些敏感的现实意义，唯一还想再啰嗦一句的是，这明明是关于一个年轻医生的故事，却始终没有他的名字。