费丽丝蒂 第一季

    这部剧的声音文件在我的mp3里躺了一年多，可以说，我经常在听。
    但一直很好奇，因为自己是在putclub的论坛上down下来的，可以想象出，当时的喜悦，看到众多英文原声资料的的兴奋，手指只是不停的点击download，名字内容也没有一一去对应。放到mp3里仔细聆听是在过后，却一时云里雾里，没有详细的标题，只有一个单“felicity”，i must say：i am confused。

听上去似乎是一个女生给另一个女生“Sally”的信，另一个音频文件是一个男孩的对那个女孩子说的话，最后女孩说："think about college is great it is，there’s something cruel
about it.Yeah,i mean you dont know anyone when you get
there.And all the sudden, you found yourself making connections and making friends and dating people，there's something incredible about it like anything is possible,and you go through years of that,and you get used to it.But the thing is,it's not real,because graduation comes,and whatever you've been walking towards,or whatever your plans are,just pulls you away, and if you're having,you know, a difficult time with the friends of yours, and he leaves,you dont have college any more to rely on to keep you together..."s
   虽然当时的我，没有看过电视，压根不知道这是一部电视剧，只是以为可能是npr的happy moment 节目，写一封信给你爱的人，这类似的节目。背景音乐很好，让我总是感觉沉浸在阳光中，不过确实第一次听到的时候是在4月的阳光里，坐在温暖的车厢中，周围人形形色色，我却沉浸在这段独白中，让我不仅感概我三年的大学生活。
   可我一直不去深究，这是怎样的一段记忆，让说话的人有如此感慨。知道今天早晨，蜷缩在被窝里的我，再次打开这段音频，听着柔和的女生，心里突然好奇，“felicity”到底是什么，字面上是happiness，但这几个音频的来源是什么。
   科技时代，我搜索下，终于知道，是一部清淡的美剧，到豆瓣上一看，喜欢她的人也关注“gilmore girl”，我想差不多了，我应该喜欢的。更何况这样看来的，应该叫felicity的这个女生，我已经很熟悉她的声音了。

  felicity的声音可以说已经十分熟悉，清脆，细腻的英语发音让我很惊讶，所以才会以为电视的音频会是广播里的节目，可以说真的没有什么嘈杂的，或许是我幸运，下载的几段声音里碰巧都是felicity的独白。终于看到了电视剧，很喜欢她，和我想像的差不多，原先幻想的是像natalie portman 一样的女孩，这样看来，女主角keri Russell也确实和她很像哈~~~
  更巧的是，当时看August Rush 时，非常欣赏那个拉大提琴的母亲，气质好的不行，再配上电影完美的配乐，这个女星很是吸引我。但当时不知道为什么看了后也没去深究，可能是当时的我没有这么刨根问底吧~~
  现在看来，一切都是巧合了，这是让我沉下心来看。剧情我先不大评价，只是看了半集，不过总是觉得felicity，我已经认识很久了，她微笑的脸庞，蓬松的头发，宽松的针织衫，也许这就是很多美剧，即使不再上档，还让我们记忆犹新，牵挂的原因。
   ^_^~
 

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Felicity’s Ben or Noel Conundrum: How The Side You Took Predicted Your Entire Love Life

By Meghan Lewit

There’s a rather famous deleted scene from the film Pulp Fiction in which Mia Wallace quizzes hit-man Vincent Vega on whether he’s a Beatles man or an Elvis man, whether he prefers The Brady Bunch or The Partridge Family, and other character-defining questions. “My theory is that, when it comes to important subjects, there’s only two ways a person can answer. Which way they choose tells you who that person is,” she states.

I’ve always found this to be a profoundly wise observation. My own cultural litmus test revolves around the love triangle at the heart of the late ’90s college drama Felicity. Or, more specifically, Ben or Noel?

The show, which first aired on the now-defunct WB network in 1998, starred Keri Russell (currently kicking ass on The Americans) as a good girl who thwarts her parents’ expectations by following her high school crush to college in New York City. (Also worth noting, Felicity was the first foray into television for a then-unfamous J.J. Abrams.) The show became a watershed cultural moment for me — partly because I was, at the time, at home in Illinois plotting my own escape to an East Coast university, but mainly because Felicity cemented my attitude toward romance for my entire adult life.

As heroines go, Felicity wasn’t particularly cool. She studied a lot, clothed herself in an unending parade of giant fuzzy sweaters, and recorded long, embarrassingly earnest messages to her absent friend Sally on a voice recorder. For a smart girl, she made the dubious choice to follow an 18-year-old boy across the country. But viewers who saw themselves in Felicity understood that the move to New York was about much more than a guy — it was about making a brash stab at independence, about carving out a place in the world where her uncoolness and her romanticism and penchant for oversized wool could flourish. In her insane, ill-considered moment of bravery, Felicity became the patron saint of nice girls who got good grades, followed the rules and more or less listened to their parents, and sometimes wondered what the hell it was all for.

And in the halls of the fictional University of New York, she found love in the form of two appealingly floppy-haired choices: Ben Covington (Scott Speedman), the mumbly, emotionally inscrutable crush she followed to college; and Noel Crane (Scott Foley), the charmingly geeky, nice-guy resident advisor. Although the Felicity love triangle came along before fans identifying themselves as “Team X” or “Team Y” had entered the vernacular, the Ben vs. Noel question became the basis of a four-season love triangle, the outcome of which can still spark heated debate among those who came of age at the turn of the millennium.

As Felicity Porter felt like my fictional spirit sister back in 1998, so her love life has provided the framework of a theory that has guided my beliefs about romance for the past 16 years: that every straight woman in the world is either a Ben-girl or Noel-girl.

Noel established his good-guy cred early in the show when he became Felicity’s confidante and Boggle partner. In the pilot, when Felicity is close to throwing in the towel on her New York adventure, he makes an endearing plea for her to stay:

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“You’ll be the fancy doctor, with the fancy practice. You’ll be married and you’ll have like four phone lines in your home. And then, boom, it’ll grip you like a blast of freezing cold air. You know, ‘what the hell is my life?’ And you’ll be able to trace it back to this instant…when that geek RA gave you [these] words of advice: stay in New York or perish.”

From that moment we knew that Noel understood her particular brand of romantic idealism, and that he would have her back. And throughout their first season courtship and over the course of the show (with the exception of an out-of-character quickie marriage and divorce to the Doritos Girl in season 3), he remained a steadfast presence in her life.

The Noel/Ben choice reached its most dramatic climax fairly early in the show’s run, at the end of the first season when Felicity has to choose between spending her summer break in Germany with Noel, or on a cross-country road trip with Ben. The season ends on a cliffhanger with Felicity — in slow motion of course — getting into a cab en route to an undisclosed destination.

“I didn’t have to make a decision between Ben and Noel,” she tells Sally in voiceover. “But I did.”

A decade and a half later, it’s not a spoiler to report that she chose Ben, and that in season 2, just a couple of episodes into their nascent romance, he broke her heart. This event launched the infamous hair chop, and a series of forgettable romances with randoms until Ben eventually wins her back by tracking down a copy of the movie that had been playing when he stood her up (Charlie Chaplin’s The Gold Rush). In his most swoon-worthy moment, he describes the film canister as a time machine that would allow them to rewrite their history.

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Photo: Tumblr
And that was the trick with Ben. He wasn’t a bad guy. He wasn’t cruel or dismissive, although he could often be thoughtless. He was a little too good looking; a person for whom things had always come a little too easily. He was someone we have all known, and probably dated at some point. Even in the midst of their on-and-off coupledom, he remained, on some level, tantalizingly unavailable.

“You want something with me, but you’re not strong enough to have it,” Felicity tells him at the beginning of their relationship.

She had a point because in the fourth season — after Felicity and Ben have graduated and moved to Palo Alto together for grad school — Ben cheats. This earnest and heartfelt drama then takes a bizarre turn into the supernatural when Felicity’s former roommate, Meghan, casts a spell that allows a devastated Felicity to travel back in time and live out an alternate reality where she chooses Noel instead. The storyline, which is just about as absurd as it sounds, sets off a sequence of events that results in Noel’s tragic death in a fire on campus, but Felicity is ultimately able to make things right by reversing the spell and returning to her life with Ben.

It’s a deeply unsatisfying conclusion to a show that had dealt so thoughtfully with the college experience. At the end, we’re supposed to accept that she made her choice not necessarily because it was the right one, but because choosing Noel would directly lead to his untimely demise.

But the fact that the Ben/Noel question still lingers is a testament to the viability of both characters. Unlike some other notable pop culture love triangles involving young people, Felicity’s choice never felt like a foregone conclusion. (By the end of their runs, was there anyone left who was still hoping that Joey would choose mopey Dawson over Pacey; that Katniss would pick volatile Gale over gentle Peeta; or thought there was a chance that Bella would end up with the werewolf instead of her creepily possessive vampire beau?) Felicity, for all its ’90s trappings, holds up as a contemplative and authentic portrayal of the coming-of-age experience and the choices that it presents. The power of the Ben/Noel divide was that neither felt like a plot device, but rather a choice between two valid real-life archetypes: the nice (albeit somewhat predictable) guy who adores you, or the soulful sort-of bad boy you’ll never be quite sure of.

It’s also important to note that the choice between Ben and Noel has less to do with the guys themselves than it does with the girl doing the choosing. Each type has its own distinct appeal, perhaps depending on where a woman is in her life. A Ben who seems irresistible at age 20 may feel like more trouble than he’s worth at 30. A friend of mine recently noted that, if she were going to write a memoir of her dating life, she’d title it: Too Many Bens, Not Enough Noels.

Although a staunch Noel devotee, when I rewatched the entire show recently, it was easier for me to understand the Ben appeal — possibly because I’m less self-serious about love now than when I was 17. Still, when I reached the end of the series, I had to conclude that my fundamental preference hadn’t changed. While Ben-girls will always crave the challenge and unpredictability, Noel-girls just don’t need that noise.

It may seem like an over-simplification of the vagaries of love and attraction, but some things really are that straightforward. Just like with the Beatles and Elvis, at some point you have to make a choice. You can like both characters — think they’re both cute, admire their overlapping taste in flannels — but no one likes them both equally. And the one you choose says everything about you.

　　我只看到第二集，但对与FELICITY相似的经历，而心中多了许多酸楚，应为和她也同样一个年龄段，面对自己的未来，继续着自己的计划还是听众父母的选择，很矛盾……但我想我还是最终会选择前者，因为那是我自己的人生。
　　但是，我往往很忽视了父母们的爱，其实，我的一个不经意的言行举止都会伤着他们。毕竟他们也是年近半百的人，渴望的是一份温馨。而不懂事的我总是让他们很伤心……其实，我从一个小细胞变成一个人，是他们赐予了我一切，只是，我觉得我应该学会用适当的方式让他们感受到女儿已经长大了。
　　对父母的爱就像原味奶茶一样，贴心而温暖！

  我大三了。却现在才开始看《大学生费莉丝蒂》。
  I'm no longer a freshman.
  如果我从大一开始看这部剧，不知道我的大学生活会有什么不同呢？这是个很笨的问题，我其实并不打算问的。

  因为我不后悔我的决定。所有的。

  我想我上大学，学会的最重要的两点就是：做人开心最重要，以及，要相信自己的决定。

  Felicity其实是个很“笨”的人（就目前来说），也许有人会问一个考上斯坦福的人怎么会是个很笨的人呢。且不去探究她考上斯坦福是不是仅因为她爸爸的关系，单单由她在对很多事情的处理上，都让我觉得她很傻，最起码不是我一直崇拜喜爱的那类精明且内心强大的人。

  她仅仅为了一份痴恋，放弃了在斯坦福的就学机会。那个男的甚至不认识她。Felicity随后的一连串花痴行为也让我很无语，虽然我能理解，理解她只是在Ben身边就能感到满足，理解在这份满足上她依然无法放弃那么点希望──Ben说不定有一天也会喜欢上她。但怎么解释她擅自帮Ben改定paper这件事呢？是的，你很喜欢他，你希望为他好，你希望看到他成绩高，这种心情让你禁不住主动为他做一些事，但你怎么能笨到随便修改别人的论文呢，且不说你很清楚学校非常反对cheating，单单就这个问题想一下：you rewote his paper without his permission,你不觉得这是一种很不尊重人的行为么?你觉得如果他知道了他会觉得感激不尽么？我想更多的是一种被侵犯的感觉吧。

  但我还是继续看这部电视剧。而且这些一点都不妨碍我觉得它是一部好剧。为什么？Because that's freshman!That's all about university!That's what people are!We all confused,and we all did stupid things.
  虽然美国的大学和中国的大学差别还是很大，而且她的困惑跟我们的的困惑也未必搭旮的，更重要的是，你未必赞同她的决定，未必觉得她做的事情就是对的（我就觉得她在面试时的回答真是傻到不得了，困惑归困惑，你应该私下自己解决掉，如果想找人述说，大把人等着，你为什么非得挑面试这个时机非得挑老师这个人来说你那番成长宣言呢老大……别管那么多，先把面试拿下来吧＝ ＝，或者你干脆拒绝他：“把机会留给更需要的人吧！”），但相同的是，我们都在成长。看着她生活，看着她思考，会促使我们也跟着思考，去反思。我们坐在电脑前并不是要看一个成功人士的回忆录，也并不是要看一个幻想出来的完美人物，我们在看一个跟我们有着许多相似地方的虽然虚构却依然真实的普通大学生。

   暂时写到这吧。差不多要睡觉了。目前看到第一季第18集。＝ ＝

    要怎么说呢，整个剧一开篇，谁能想到呢？一个普普通通的毕业场面，只不过点缀了一撇文艺气息和阳光的色调就整个美腻的让人沉醉。尤其是凯丽的那种感觉，金色卷发就像猫咪那种暖洋洋的感觉。凯丽给人一种特自然，舒缓的感觉，再加上她略微有点散漫的嗓音，整个剧简直只用了几秒钟就抓住了我~

       所以特别喜欢JJ，一直以为他科幻作品最棒，其实这种言情小文更细腻，更抒情。。。。

     随着她的视角，我们看到了Ben，是啊ben，他的样子，再加上那一点隆重而随意坐在草地上写东西的感觉，再听到他写的那些文字，我想爱上ben的那一刻并不只有felicity 了，观众瞬间都了解了她为了ben报考一个大学的冲动了。。。

    felicity的感觉，凯丽演的太真了。。自然就好像是她本来一样的。怯懦，不安，对生活感觉细腻，内心温暖善良，喜欢诗意的传达感情，偶尔鲁莽，却又那么勇敢明媚，浑身散发着青春的晨雾。那么美的一个女孩，那种仿佛一伸手就能触摸到的真实感，只能叹服这个人物从编写到演绎到实在太好了！

留着慢慢写~

YDY好像才做到第三集，所以我就看了三集，因为讲的是大学生的生活，所以我还是挺喜欢的。

总觉得高中毕业时Ben写给Felicity的那段话比较经典，分享一下：

"Dear Felicity, Here it goes, I've watched you for four years, always wondered what you were like, what was going on in your mind when you were so quiet, just thinking, drawing in your notebook. I should have just asked you, but I never asked you. So now, four years later, I don't even know you, but I admire you. Well, this makes me sound crazy, but I'm OK with that. So take care of yourself. Love Ben.

PS, I would have said keep in touch, but unfortunately, we never were in touch."